Is it fall yet?

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I’m so excited with how these fall inspired cupcakes turned out and I hope my coworkers all enjoy the little sugar rush before this very crazy busy week of work. 

Since I’ve been working in education for over 12 years fall always feels like the start of something new. You can smell the change in the air as the weather becomes cold and crisp. It always reminds me of marching band and field shows. (I did colorguard all 4 years of high school so that smell is extremely nostalgic.)

As I move into this fall I hope that it does bring about some good changes. I’m ready for something really good to happen this year, even if it’s just a small thing. I’m ready for shifts that will move my life forward instead of taking 3 steps back. This year has felt like a boxing match and even though I keep getting knocked down I’m still getting up again everyday. (Can you spot the song reference???)

So bring it on fall, just be a little gentle with me.

 

Welcome to Cupcakeland!

I’ve slowly but surely been getting back to my baking roots this year. Not long after I moved to Portland I went gluten free, then paleo, and pretty much gave up everything I learned about baking in culinary school. It was too expensive to experiment with paleo baking and honestly things just aren’t as much fun without real flour, butter, and sugar when that’s what I had been baking most of my life.

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So when my health issues finally subsided and I was able to eat gluten again without getting sick, I slowly started baking again. I don’t think I realized how much I missed it until now, but baking was always a creative outlet and a stress reliever. Being back in the kitchen, trying out recipes, and making delicious things for people I love just makes me happy.

Getting asked by my boss to back some treats for my coworkers this week was the perfect opportunity to bring back and old favorite recipe. Chocolate stout cupcakes were a staple when I ran my pastry business in California, and after some deep internet digging I finally found the tried and true recipe I always used.

I felt so good to do something familiar, like I could reach back in time to when my early twenties were full of days being covered in flour and nights drinking my sorrows away with my friends at the bar. I was so sure in those days that I would some day have my own bakery, where I could serve cupcakes and cocktails. Honestly, I still have this fantasy sometimes, especially when I’ve been staring at my computer for 8 hours and having all the creativity sucked out of me at my day job.

So will these few batches of cupcakes be the turning point I need in my life right now? I’m not sure. But I do think it’s cracked something open in me that makes me realize I need a constant creative outlet in my life. And tomorrow I’ll get to express myself even more at I make these cupcakes look extra beautiful before taking them to work on Tuesday. I hope I can create a little wow on my coworkers first day back at work after summer break.